Wednesday, December 07, 2005
This will be my last entry in blogdrive... Awwwww......GOODBYE BLOGDRIVE! It's fun being with the little prince... Though I really intended this to be temporary since then. I will be transferring to blogger/blogspot for good. My super GALING friend ighie made a personalized template just for me. It's super nice! So don't forget to visit me there! Just in time for my birthday! I'm sooo excited! Though it's still under construction, I will be posting my next entries there. Thanks everyone for being with me here. I will be seeing you again!.... Be with me again. Thankssss!!!! Mwaahhh!!!
Check me out at When Angels Touch the Ground.
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Monday, November 28, 2005
Sabi ni ate jane, gawin ko na daw comedy ang blog ko...hehe,, Masyado na ba akong madrama.?! Anyway, I had wonderful weekend! We went again sa bukid sa Lian, Batangas. Ang saya!
Nov. 26, Saturday
Umalis kme ng Las Pinas mga 7:00am. Ako siyempre, tatay, nanay, diego, tricia, simon, Tito Nol, and Ate Vicky. We were with Tita Juaning, tatay and nanay's friend sa parish. Syempre, pagdating around 10am, kain agad...sa dahon ng saging. ;-) Ang sarap kumain lalo na't nakakamay! After washing the dishes, diretso na ako sa aming maliit na kubo...at doon...NATULOG! Haha, after waking up, merienda time ulit. Around 5:00pm, nagtanim kme ng halaman. The ones we bought almost a month ago. Tinanim namin sa harapan ng kubo. Naalala ko si Che (a close friend from UP) nung nagtanim kme sa bahay ng foster family namin sa Nagcarlan Laguna during our 2-month Community Immersion. Siyempre, dahil sa kanya, marunong na ako. Kung matigas ang lupa, maaring basahin ng kaunti upang lumambot. Mas mainam hukayin ang lupa at pagkatapos durugin ito bago itabon sa mga ugat ng halaman. Ang saya! After being messed up, naligo na kami dahil hinabol namin ang 7:30pm mass sa bayan ng Lian. Tito Al and family (also a family friend from the parish) arrived and we headed to St. John the Baptist Parish Church. Sam and Ras were already there inside the Church. (They both have saturday classes kaya sumunod na lang sila.) It's nice to hear mass with the family! Most espicially, it's the first week of advent! After mass, we had a delicious dinner, again, in a banana leaf. And at the end of the night....as usual.... VIDEOKE!!!!
Nov. 27, Sunday
After breakfast, we prepared ourselves for Matabungkay Beach. Kaming anim na magkakapatid, kasama ang buong family ni Tito Al, Tita Juaning and Damboy. We were all excited! Nung nasa dagat na kme, I was suprised to see how clean it was. Di kse ako sanay na malinis ang dagat. Usually, ito ay malumot, madaming seaweeds, hindi malinaw ang tubig at madumi din ang buhangin. Never akong nag-enjoy maligo sa matabungkay dahil nga nadudumihan ako. NGAYON na lamang after sooo many years, I never felt kadiri while swimming! Enjoy pa ang pedal boat.. We rented it for 150 per hour and I think it's worth it. I mean, the fun of being able to go further sa dagat nang sama-sama! 6 persons per pedal boat. Kakangalay nga lang magpedal tska lumakas yung hangin kaya we were stucked in the middle for a while. Sa bukid na kme nagbanlaw at naligo. Syempre, we ate lunch ng madami at medyo masakit na din ang katawan namin kaya natulog na naman sa tanghali. hehehe,, After the siesta, merienda, kwentuhan, kulitan. :) Nagtuhog na kme ng barbeque and then nagihaw-ihaw na! Sarap ulit ng dinner!
Nagpahinga lang ng konti after dinner tapos naglaro na ang mga bata ng taguan at trapped inside te circle. Maya-maya, nagyaya na sila mag patintero at dahil sa kulang sila, pinilit nila akong sumali. haaayyy, ang tagal kong di na ulit naglaro. Feeling ko ang bagal ko na tumakbo. Pero ang saya at ang sarap pa din talaga!!! Nakakapawis pero enjoy!
Maya-maya, mga past 10pm dumating na ang Manuyo Core. Sina ate jane, kuya jeff and kuya Pepu. Nagdinner lang sila at naghugas lang ako ng plato at naglinis, pagkatapos, nagstart na kme ng PLANNING for Manuyo Youth Group. After a long time, ngayon lang ako lit nagkaron ng formal planning. We ended the intro and the presentation of needs of MYG at almost 3:00 am bago kme naghiwa-hiwalay para magpahinga.
Nov. 28, Monday
We woke up past 8 am. Nagtanim sila ulit pero di na ako sumali. Naligo na ako agad at after breakfast, mga 10am, nagumpisa na ulit kme ng planning. Daming plans sa group. I wont go into details na dito. Pero ang ganda ng aming mga napagplanuhan... Nauna umuwi sina tito Al tpos sina Nanay naman ng mga 12:00. Naiwan ako para ituloy ang planning namin. Natapos kme ng mga 4:30pm. Isang napakagandang pagkakataon para sa core ng manuyo. sayng nga lang at di namin natuloy ni Kuya Jeff ang plano dahil wala si Fort at Shiela. Haayy, we left Lian at around 5:30 pm dhil matagal yung bus dumating. We arrived home at 8:20 pm.
At long last, nakauwi na din. Sakit ng katawan ko sa pagod sa mga activities during the weekend. Pero sobraaaaanngggg saya ko! Feeling ko nasulit ang bakasyon namin. Unlike before na nade2press lang ako sa bukid at laging nakasub-sob sa baon kong libro. O ayan...masaya na ang kwento ko ha! Mahaba nga lang. hehehe, Salamat!
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Friday, November 25, 2005
Yesterday, I went to Glorietta and as soon as I arrived, I headed to Goodwill bookstore to once again take a peek on the piano book I've been drooling for. It's worth P1,520 that's why I know I couldn't buy it on my own. I was more overwhelmed to see that it is now 60% off -- meaning it will only cost P608 now. Good thing, I was able to convince my tatay and nanay to just meet me at Goodwill. I showed them at once the piano book entitled - The Big Book of Wedding Music with 77 cherished songs. It has the most heartwarming love songs and wedding instrumentals compared to the rest of the books in the shelf. I was sooOoooo glad that tatay agreed to buy the book for me. He said, "Dapat tumugtog ka ulit ha!". I also bought Ikaw Ang Lahat Sa Akin worth P55 arranged by Digna Roxas.
Once more, I was inspired to PLAY PIANO again. I wondered if our Bamboo Organ organist Amando Salarza will accept me as a student again after almost 6 years of not attending piano lessons. And even though my fingers would usually tremble while playing in front of a crowd, I know that in my heart, I really love to play piano--my nanay made me love it. And deep inside I desire to learn more and to be able to play, with my whole heart and spirit. I would love to create music. I would love to bring peace and joy through playing the piano.
On playing other things.....
O well, I was branded by many people (usually guys) that I am a PLAYING SAFE person. I am very careful, I will always think of what would I have to say, I would as much as possible keep the deepest feelings inside myself, I would make so many alibis, I would go around the bush and I would never go straight to the point. Just a while ago, I was talking to Kuya Kirby over the phone and he made me remember how 'super magulong kausap' I am most especially when talking to guys regarding matters of the heart. I was telling him what happened to me last week and all he said is that it's all my fault. He said that IN MY FACE!!!!
I was trying to rationalize at first, saying that it's not easy to be confronted and to go straight to the point and straight to what I want. But he insisted that I am so 'paligoy-ligoy' and it seems that most of the time, my true message would be hidden in a riddle. It's like a difficult conquest that even the most intelligent person would go insane because of me. It's either yes or no but my answer would be "You have to like this or like that....; It's because...; My situation is this and that..."; and many more!
I admit I was hurt. But then I realized that he was right. And because he was right, I wanted to cry. Cry because I know I hurt someone. Cry because once again, I was misinterpreted. I know, I know...Not all people would want to pursue a person like me. Not all people would have the courage to clarify things and to know what I really mean. Especially when they are hurt. Not all people would be patient enough to understand me each time I would go around and around with what I'm implying. Not all people would want to play with me. To me who wouldn't want to lose. To me who wouldn't want to risk anything. To me who would think over decisions a hundred times or more. To me who is always playing safe.
Sadly, now, I lost my playmates. They have given up. I have no playmates anymore even if I wanted to keep one. Maybe I don't deserve any. Maybe my playmates wouldn't want to play with me the way I play with them. Maybe before my playmates enjoy the game, they are already tired and exhausted. And now, I am playing alone.
No room for parallel, cooperative or competitive play for me. I have to get used to play alone. I am like an infant who engage in solitary play. No hurting of playmates anymore. Playing with me is similar to what Sam said to Austin Ames in The Cinderella Story: "Waiting for you is like waiting for rain to end the drought: disappointing and useless."
I have to learn from my experience. Life is indeed not a simple game to play. We cannot always play safe and we cannot always win. Just like a liitle child who fell and bruised his knees while running--there will be times when we end up being hurt and broken. There are winners and losers but there are lessons learned. And those lessons give worth and meaning to the game so-called LIFE.
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Monday, November 21, 2005
Aside from being bored, I woke up today a bit depressed. I was in front of the computer the whole day--diversion therapy and yet my mood did not change. O well, this is what I do coz I'm still bum. I should have been reviewing for NCLEX. Last week, I had all the motivation to study. However, this day, all that motivation vanished.
It is the fifth day. I don't like to see him. I don't like to talk to him. I don't like to text him. It's no use. I am used to be left behind. I am always the one who is given up. I should not expect anything to anyone. I should have known better. Never trust. Never hope.
Another reminder for myself... I am only a co-coordinator. I have to be cautious with my actions. I have the tendency to overpower people unconsciously. Stop being demanding. Stop being soOoo strong. People often misinterpret my actions. Most people really do...and it's annoying...
Lastly, I should not expect that I will regain THE friendship I had with him before. It's been over a year and yet we haven't learned to be comfortable with each other. Even if I see him almost twice a week, even if I can share jokes and simple thoughts thru text messages...It ends there. He is not making any effort. I should accept it.
Good thing my friend, Ica reminded me that I am MORE PRECIOUS than JEWELS. And that we do not deserve to be taken for granted, to be hurt and to be given up. We should not shed tears to those who are unworthy. Let go, let go...I can do it again. I know.
-----> RN, MAN, PhD or RN, MD.?! Haven't decided yet. Oh my!
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Friday, November 18, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
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I Love You Very Much!
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Friday, November 11, 2005
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Thursday, November 10, 2005
Angela, nagdesisyon ka diba? Ikaw ang pumili niyan. Wala kang karapatang malungkot. Panindigan mo ang iyong desisyon. Pinili mong maging mag-isa. Pinili mong huwag samahan ng iba. Pinili mo yan. Anu man ang kinahinatnan, dapat mong tanggapin ng maluwag sa iyong puso.
Hindi mo kase inaasahan na masasaktan ka kaya ka ganyan. Akala mo kaya mo na ang lahat. Di lang sa iyo umiikot ang mundo. Hindi lahat ay maghihintay sa iyo. Hindi lahat maiintindihan ang nararamdaman mo. May mga taong darating. Mayroon aalis. Mayroon kailangang umalis. At mayroon ka ding pinapaalis kahit hindi mo sinasadya.
Wala kang dapat pagsisihan. Ginawa mo lang ang nararapat at ang sa tingin mong mas patas sa iba. Ayaw mo din makasakit ng tuluyan. Lalo na ngayon. Magulo ka. At habang magulo ka pa, di ka dapat mandamay ng iba. Kayanin mo muna yan mag-isa. Hayaan mo munang tuluyang maghilom ang mga sarili mong sugat. Binibigyan ka niya ng pagkakataon.
At kahit na nalulungkot ka, isipin mo na lang na kailangan iyong gawin---dahil hindi lang ikaw ang mundo. At may mga mundong patuloy na iikot kahit wala ka doon. Masanay ka na.
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Monday, November 07, 2005
It's been a longggggggg time! It's nice to be here again...
I've been busy but I'm happy coz I got to meet some of my friends, got to relax sa bukid sa batangas, attended Jam's debut last Sat, attended my most awaited first meeting with Manuyo Youth Group and helped helped helped helped clean the house. O well, I was assigned to wash the clothes and to cook. (Nagsugat nga yung mga kamay ko sa paglalaba eh, huhuhu!) And a while ago, I was with Ate Eilleen and Ate Luan sa divisoria, at NASUYOD namin ang 168! ahihihi! Kapagod pero masaya!
"Anak, di ka na naman nagaaral...Malapit na ang buhay mo! Kung anu-ano na naman ang dinadahilan mo, ano ba anak! Mag-aral ka, mag-aral ka! Isipin mo ang mga nakasanlang kalabaw, ang mga papaaralin mong kapatid, ang mga utang mo sa tita mo...Dapat makapasa ka anak, pero pa'no ka makakapasa kung ganyan ka. Balahura ka talaga anak! Mag-aral ka, mag-aral kaaaaa!". Bukam-bibig yan ni Sir Balisnomo sa amin sa review...bwahahaha! I'm sure yan ang gusto niyang sabihin sakin!
I left Dan Brown for a while...Ilang gabi ko na siyang naka2tulugan! Magtatampo na si Da Vinci! (Oo, ngayon ko pa lang binabasa ang Da Vinci Code...oo na, huli na ako! yabang, hmmmp!!!!)
I was strucked with the community meeting last night. Aside from the sensitive topics that we talked about, we also reflected on an very disturbing and challenging gospel reading. It came from Matthew 25: 31-46. The verse that struck me most: “Truly I tell you, just as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to me. And these will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life." Our pastoring group (similar sa small group namin sa Community of the Living Water), ako, Ate Anlyne, Ate Rhyanne, Ate Luan and Ate Eilleen- ang aming pastor, agreed with a conviction statement: A HEART FOR JESUS IS A HEART FOR OTHERS.
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Wooooww!!!! Me and Lorraine when she came over para makapagkwentuhan kame :-)
Thanks Lorraine for always inspiring me--alam mo na yun kung saang aspeto! Mwaahhh!!
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Monday, October 31, 2005
Ito ang aking Green Dong-a Ballpen, Steadler na Eraser at ang Pink Pentel Mechanical Pencil...Sila ang mga gamit ko sa review pati na din ang test-paper sa pentagon. hehe,, O well, ksama pla ang Pretz Stix na favorite ni pau at jihan!
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ANG AKING MGA KA-KOSA SA PENTAGON!
SPOT THE DIFFERENCE!!!!
Haaayyy, namiss ko agad sila! Mga makukulit na ksama at mga bagong kaibigan pero 4 years ko naging kaklase...na ngayon ko lang naging close! Buti na lang! Ang Saya!
WOooooWwww, ang ganda parang nagpa-salon!!!!
May separation anxiety na din ako like pau....huhuhu!!!!
Ika nga ni pau, BACKMATES!
Sitting arrangement: mitz - pau - gelai - jihan
Sleeping arrangement: pau - gelai (wehehehe,,)
*Masarap sa likod dahil high back rest ang upuan, madaling magnakaw ng tulog at madaling lumabas para mag-CR at mag-gala. Di din nakakhiya kpag late ka at higit sa lahat, di nakakahiya kapag madaldal at kain-kain. Except that ksama mo ang mga lolas at mga MD, RNs. :-)
Ako at Jihan...
Kasama kong tumakbo para humabol ng LRT at ksama kong bumili ng Diced Hopia sa Baker's Fair!
Thanks din pla Jihan for the pics! Mwaaahhhh!!!!!
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Friday, October 28, 2005
Haaaayy...ito na ang huling araw ng review sa Pentagon para sa NCLEX exam...
Nagsimula ang review noong September 19. Mula noon, pumapasok na ako sa College of Holy Spirit Manila (CHSM) araw para umupo mula alas-otso ng umaga (mali. late pala ako lagi...alas nuebe y medya pala.hehe!) hanggang alas-singko ng hapon. Naiintindihan ko na kung bakit nagkakapressure sores ang mga immobilized patients dahil muntik na itong mangyari sa akin. Masakit sa puwit umupo!
Inaamin ko. At alam ng mga kasama ko sa review iyan, ako ang pinakatamad sa amin. Dahil na din siguro wala pa naman akong date ng exam. Late ako lagi pumapasok, madaming absent at natutulog sa klase. Feeling ko bumabalik ako sa pagkabata dahil napaka-SHORT ATTENTION SPAN ko! At walang araw ang lumipas ng hindi ako natutulog. Haaaaayyy...
Noong una, medyo malungkot ako dahil wala man lang akong super ka-close na kasabay magre2view...Hindi ko kabarkada ang mga nakasama ko at hindi ko sila naging mga kagrupo kaya hindi kme as in close. Pero natutuwa ako dahil nakasama ko na at mas nakilala ko na sila ngayon. Sina Kat, Diane, Nerizza, Shanta, Jihan, Pau, Mitz, Krine at Annie. Mamimiss ko sila.
Marami akong natutunan at nagawa sa review na iyon.
- Una, na mayroong 3 for P100 pirated dvds sa quiapo (arlegui), araw2 ko itong dinadaanan.
- Ikalawa, natuto akong maglakad ng buong mendiola dahil madalas sarado ito dahil sa mga rally.
- Ikatlo, masarap pala ang Corn Bits Blue, Blu Skies Milk, Oatmeal cookie sa CHSM at Pretzy (mga favorite naming pagkain!)
- Ika-apat, natuto akong magLRT mula Doroteo Jose kasabay si Jihan. Nasanay akong mag-dyip mula baclaran dahil ito din ang pinakatipid na ruta pauwi.
- Ika-lima, masarap ang hopia sa Baker's Fair, malapit sa Dotoeo Jose station. (Thanks Jihan!)
- Ika-anim, maraming devotee si St. Jude lalo na kpag Thursday! At si Diane ang kasama ko lagi doon. :)
- Ika-pito, ang Sta.Cruz na dyip ay hindi dumadaan ng Quiapo. (psensya na!)
- Ikawalo, bawal ang mga daring na damit sa CHSM. hehe,,
- Ikasiyam, nakapagbasa ako ng Eleven Minutes ny Paulo Coelho. Thanks Nerizza!
- Ikasampu, kapag inaantok ka, matulog ka!
Dahil sa huling araw na namin kanina, ngkaroon kame ng pagdiriwang. Nagdala si pau ng pasta (tuna in red sauce), ako ng buko salad, jihan ng gelatin from glodilocks and stuffed crust pizza supreme na pinaghati-hatian ng iba pa sa amin. Ang sarraaaapppp!
Nagpicture-picture na din kame kanina! Mami2ss ko ang aking mga 'pentagon-mates' a.k.a. mga new found friends ko ngayon. :) Mami2ss ko din si Sir Andamo, Sir Mike at Sir Jerome. Astig talga kayo!
Haaaayyyyyy..... Pentagon Days are over... sa muli nating pagkikita... Paalam...
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I will be studying on my own for the next few months as I wait for the Authorization to Test from the California Board of Registered Nursing. I do hope that I will have the spirit of discipline to study well...
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